Why did Tamar Braxton attempt suicide? Singer felt her son would be better off without his 'loudmouth ghetto mama'
Singer and television personality Tamar Braxton broke down and revealed she attempted suicide because she thought her seven-year-old son Logan "deserved better." The 43-year-old made the emotional confession while appearing on an upcoming episode of the Facebook Watch series ‘Peace of Mind With Taraji’.
Tamar told the host Taraji P Henson in tears, "Logan was the reason why I made that decision. I just felt like he deserved better. I felt like I was embarrassing him, being a fool on TV." Taraji asked her if she "thought he would be better without" her, to which Tamar responded: "I thought in that moment."
She continued: "Because I knew that’s not what my whole life really was. That’s not who I was. I didn’t want him to be embarrassed in front of his friends. Here is this loudmouth ghetto mama." Tamar shares Logan with ex-husband Vincent Herbert, 47. The pair married in 2013, while she filed for divorce in October 2017.
Tamar, who is the sister of Toni Braxton, was found unresponsive by boyfriend David Adefeso at the Ritz Carlton Residences in downtown Los Angeles, according to reports. Authorities were called to the residences at around 9.45 pm, reporting that a 43-year-old woman had suffered a “possible overdose."
Adefeso called 911 after finding her and said he believed it may have been a suicide attempt and the singer was rushed to the hospital by ambulance. She later shared a moving statement in which she confirmed the July 16 incident was her "attempt to end my pain and my life." During an October episode of The Tamron Hall Show, the singer revealed "she's good" now after her suicide attempt four months earlier.
Tamar told the host: "I was living a complete lie, a facade that I was ok for a long time. But I'm good now – better than yesterday, better than I was before. I just have a scope of where I'm going and it's just up from here because I know the struggles that I've had and I've learned from them. I've learned the signs of when I'm not ok so I'm good now."
She further talked about the events that led to her suicide attempt and said: "I was lying about how amazing I was doing and I allowed the makeup and the hair to cover up everything I was feeling because I was used to that. Our household became very hard and it was hard because I wasn't happy at my job – at the network doing [‘Braxton Family Values’] – and I hadn't been happy for years, and it turned into a spin-off show because I wanted to do other things. The way my contract was set-up was they would leverage more time at the network and more shows for them so I could do other things I wanted to do."
She added, "I didn't want to do the spin-off Get Ya Life!, and when it was presented to me that this was the only way to do another show that I really was excited about, that was fun and positive and more me. So ok, I'll do that. It was supposed to be about me having a one-woman show, going on the road, and talking about my life after my divorce from Vince [Herbert]."
The vision for her show changed when some of her darkest secrets were revealed to producers and the cameras, including her sexual assault.