'What a difference a year makes': Lena Dunham reflects on journey one year after hysterectomy

Lena Dunham shared side by side pictures of her recovery journey from having her uterus and cervix removed on her Instagram


                            'What a difference a year makes': Lena Dunham reflects on journey one year after hysterectomy

Lena Dunham is proud of how far she has come and how much she has progressed since her hysterectomy last year. The 'Camping' producer opened up to her fans and followers on social media to share the transformation she has undergone.

Dunham shared side by side pictures of her recovery journey from having her uterus and cervix removed on her Instagram. "What a difference a year makes. First photo was indeed a year ago today, on the first night after my hysterectomy for severe endometriosis. I was smiling but my eyes say it all: full of anxiety and grief that I couldn’t locate through the layers of pain meds and benzos," Lena said.


 
 
 
 
 
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What a difference a year makes... First photo was indeed a year ago today, on the first night after my hysterectomy for severe endometriosis. I was smiling but my eyes say it all: full of anxiety and grief that I couldn’t locate through the layers of pain meds and benzos. Severe undiagnosed PTSD, feelings that my worth and purpose were being taken from me, angry and self-pitying with no sense of how I’d emerge. Plus, my hair had fallen out in odd clumps and I’d taken it upon myself to dye what remained electric blue cuz if you’re gonna spiral why not SPIRAL (shout out to @joanaavillez for being a true friend and bringing Manic Panic when I demanded it at night in the hospital, though. I love you Jo.) The second pic was taken tonight, happy joyous and (substance) free. The last year hasn’t been all roses and Kenny G songs, but it’s been proof enough for me in the presence of the divine. The divine- it’s been there in the kindness of my family, friends, chronically ill folks online. It’s also been there in the moments where I cried myself to sleep, shocked by the sounds coming out of me. It’s in the light slanting on my comforter, the resilience of my best friend’s baby clonking her head then giggling, the new hairs sprouting at my temples. Mostly I’ve found it in my own strength, because who the fuck knew. And I don’t mean strength as in powering through. I mean strength as in vulnerability, feeling it all, taking it as it comes and dancing even with a hospital grade pad in my underwear. I surprised myself. I bet you can surprise yourself too.

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"Severe undiagnosed PTSD, feelings that my worth and purpose were being taken from me, angry and self-pitying with no sense of how I’d emerge. Plus, my hair had fallen out in odd clumps and I’d taken it upon myself to dye what remained electric blue cuz if you’re gonna spiral why not SPIRAL," she continued. 

Lena had to have many surgeries until she had a hysterectomy. During the 2017 Met Gala celebrations, Lena was rushed to the hospital due to endometriosis complications. Unfortunately for Lena, the hysterectomy was not all she had to endure and in the month of October, she had to have her left ovary removed to cure the remaining excruciating pain that she was experiencing. 

"The second pic was taken tonight, happy joyous and (substance) free," Dunham added. While appearing on Dax Shepard's podcast 'Armchair Expert', she revealed that she had been six months sober from using Klonopin which she had been taking for anxiety. 


 
 
 
 
 
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To me, power is pleasure and the safety to make art. That’s it, for now.

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"The last year hasn't been all roses and Kenny G songs, but it’s been proof enough for me in the presence of the divine. The divine — it’s been there in the kindness of my family, friends, chronically ill folks online. It’s also been there in the moments where I cried myself to sleep, shocked by the sounds coming out of me," she continued. "It’s in the light slanting on my comforter, the resilience of my best friend’s baby clonking her head then giggling, the new hairs sprouting at my temples. Mostly I’ve found it in my own strength because who the f*** knew". 

"And I don’t mean strength as in powering through. I mean strength as in vulnerability, feeling it all, taking it as it comes and dancing even with a hospital grade pad in my underwear," she added. "I surprised myself. I bet you can surprise yourself too," she shared. 

Many people could relate to Lena's posts about dealing with health conditions and one fan wrote, "Thanks for reminding me it’s gonna get better" to which Dunham responded saying, "Every day it’s getting better and one day it IS better."

Another fan commented saying, "This gives me hope through my chronic pain, one year can make a difference" and Lena answered by writing, "I never could have imagined and I didn’t have to do much but surrender, my love". 

Other comments included: "Thank you for your honesty and willingness to put yourself out there. I so admire your courage.", "Thank you for your vulnerability Lena. You are such an important voice for women."
"@lenadunham it is my pleasure to be apart of your healing journey. Love you so much! This year will be the best year yet for you!"

Actress Lena Dunham (Getty Images)
Actress Lena Dunham (Getty Images)

In honor of the nine-month anniversary of the hysterectomy, Lena wrote at the time, "I’ve never celebrated the nine-month anniversary of anything and I realized last night why that number feels so funny — I won’t ever do it the way I planned to."

She added: "My body is mostly healed and every day I find a new bruise on my heart, but today I offer myself gratitude: from the most pained place, I somehow knew to choose myself. The purest glint of who we are and know we can be is always available to us, calm and true at our center."