Jeffree Star confirms split with boyfriend Nathan Schwandt in heartbreaking video after five years of dating
After five years of being together, YouTube and makeup guru Jeffree Star and Nathan Schwandt have split up.
The news was confirmed on a video Star posted onYouTube this Saturday, January 11. Star is seen sitting on his pink bed with his dogs as he revealed that the couple split weeks ago.
The confirmation comes after Star had posted a tweet saying, "Dear God please stop the pain," which he soon deleted. The tweet sparked split rumors among his Twitter and Instagram fan base.
In the video titled 'We Broke Up', Star goes on to say, "Hey, guys. I don't even know how to do this intro. I never thought the day would come where I'd be sitting here talking about this. We've tried to film this 10 times now and I've cried every single time and we are a few weeks in of me and Nathan no longer being together and I don't even know where to begin there's no easy way to say this but we did break up."
"I've used a lot of this time of silence to just try to heal, you know. We're both in a state of shock. I'm devastated, I'm so sad and the love of my life is no longer—wait, I don't wake up to him anymore. He's no longer here every morning and my routines have changed and I'm just in a state of shock right now. We both are," Star continued.
Wanting to heal without publicity, Star continued, "I was really emotional, there were so many things happening in my head. This isn't like an Internet fight. This isn't drama, this isn't tea. This is my real life and me and my soul mate are really going through it and we're both...we've both been through so much the last few years. I feel like I owe you all an explanation because Nathan and I have grown with each other in front of all of you and I can't believe he's not here right now."
Star, who rose to fame with his make-up videos on YouTube, said the last thing he wanted to do was talk about the break-up on camera. "But me and him have filmed so many videos together. We've traveled the world together. I just want to put this on record that Nathan is the only man that I've ever been in love with and I know he's not here today, but he wanted to say hi and sent his love to everyone. It's been difficult because Nathan never wanted to be in the spotlight."
Reminiscing about how the couple fell in love all those years ago, Star said, "I'm grateful for him and I'll be grateful until the day I die. Because this was the only man that was ever confident enough to love me publicly, to love me for me, fully, all my flaws, no makeup waking up in bed, to full-on, like, you know what I mean, like, he never cared about any of it and he just loved me for me. And no man has ever had those feelings, I don't think, for me. And I've never loved someone like I've loved him."
"It's 2020," Star continues, "We're gonna start things off fresh. I'm starting this year off alone and I can't even believe I'm saying that. I'm so devastated but I'm strong and you guys know that me and Nate had been through so much together. And there's no crazy gossip, there's no tea, this is actually really important and I don't think that enough celebrities, influencers, people with a platform, talk about, and that's mental health."
"We're both broken and we were both so busy being there for each other that we forgot to be here for ourselves, and that's what 2020 is—focusing on our own selves," he continued.
Star said he and Schwandt will be close regardless, "I will always have love for him," he said. "Are we in love with each other? No. But we love each other and he will always be in my life."
Reassuring his followers that he will be back, the description of the video said, "Thank you all for the love and support during this difficult time. I'll be back to filming and creating with makeup soon."