Demi Moore says her 'addiction' to Ashton Kutcher was 'devastating' as 'it took her away emotionally'
The actress said she 'went into contortions to try to fit the mold of the woman he (Kutcher) wanted his wife to be'.
Two months after her explosive tell-all memoir, "Inside Out", was published, Demi Moore sat down to talk about her toxic marriage to Ashton Kutcher that had turned into an "addiction."
On Monday’s Red Table Talk on Facebook Watch, Moore, 56, along with two of her three daughters, Rumer and Tallulah Willis, joined hosts Jada Pinkett Smith, Willow Smith and Adrienne Banfield-Norris to discuss her past, which included a tumultuous eight-year-long marriage to the "No Strings Attached" actor.
“The addiction and the co-dependency… like my addiction to Ashton — that was probably almost more devastating because it took me seriously away emotionally,” Moore said.
“Ashton said, ‘I don’t know if alcoholism’s a thing. I think it’s about moderation,'” Moore recalled. “If I had stayed close to working my program… I, of course, lived the majority of my adult life sober. I was great sober.”
Although Moore did not directly blame her ex-husband for leading her to her relapse, she did admit that she “went into contortions to try to fit the mold of the woman he wanted his wife to be.”
“I made my own story up, that he wanted somebody that he could have wine with that he could do stuff [with]. He’s not the cause of why I opened that door up,” she continued. “I wanted to be something other than who I am. And I gave my power away.”
Things got worse when the actor admitted for the second time that he had cheated on Moore and moved out of their home. To deal with the pain and the void, the "Striptease" actress started abusing Vicodin and alcohol, causing her three daughters to stop speaking to her and her first husband, Bruce Willis, who she was friends with, to pull away as well.
As a result of her continued dependence on drugs, the star was rushed to the hospital in 2012 after smoking synthetic marijuana and inhaling nitrous oxide at a party.