I’m going to die or I’m going to kill myself: William Shatner says he felt overwhelming grief after third wife Nerine Kidd's death

In his upcoming memoir, 'Live Long and… What I Learned Along the Way', 87-year-old Shatner described his third wife's death as being one of the lowest points in his life


                            I’m going to die or I’m going to kill myself: William Shatner says he felt overwhelming grief after third wife Nerine Kidd's death

Almost two decades after the death of his wife Nerine Kidd, 'Star Trek' actor William Shatner has finally revealed the horrifying details about the time he found the body of his wife in the swimming pool which they had in their home. In his upcoming memoir, "Live Long and… What I Learned Along the Way", 87-year-old Shatner described his third wife's death as being one of the lowest points in his life.

Writing about the tragic incident in 1999, Shatner said: "My grief was overwhelming. This was the type of pain that makes you think either I’m simply going to die or I’m going to kill myself." He also goes into excruciating detail in the book about the moment he discovered Kidd's body on the couple's property.

He wrote: "I found her in our pool and lifted her out of the water. The emergency responders rushed to the house but there was nothing that could be done. I saw her body lying there in the moonlight." Kidd was 40 years old when she died. It has been widely known that she was an alcoholic before that, Radar Online reported.



 

Even though her death had been ruled as accidental, a 1999 autopsy report revealed that alcohol and Valium had been involved in the drowning. After she passed away, Shatner said in an interview that his wife had been helpless.

He said: "I fought and fought to save my wife from the serpent of alcoholism — but I failed. Nerine would hide bottles of alcohol all around the house where I couldn’t find them, and even hide her vodka in water bottles. Nerine’s own psychiatrist told me that, for her own good, I should divorce her... [He] said, 'If you love her, you have to leave her'."

Shatner had filed for divorce from Kidd in October 1998 but then ended up staying with her. He confessed in the same interview that took place in 1999 that he had told Kidd that he was going to leave her for good only days before he found her lifeless body floating in the pool. 

In the new book, Shatner recalls being "completely lost" after Kidd died. He wrote: "The drowning death of my wife Nerine haunts me." Kidd's brother William accused the 'Star Trek' actor in 1999 of using his sister's death so that he could sell his memoirs that had been published years ago.

Just two years after the tragic death of his third wife, Shatner remarried horse trainer Elizabeth Anderson.