Shadowhunters season 3 episode 19 finally gives us dark Clary, more sizzling Sizzy and a painfully heartbroken Malec

Jace goes as an undercover agent to protect Clary while trying to help her in her new mission with Jonathan; but just how far will he go in his pursuit?

                            Shadowhunters season 3 episode 19 finally gives us dark Clary, more sizzling Sizzy and a painfully heartbroken Malec

This article contains spoilers for 'Shadowhunters' season 3, episode 19 'Aku Cinta Kamu.'

There's a lot going on in 'Shadowhunters' episode 19, 'Aku Cinta Kamu,' in its third and final season, and no, it's not just intense relationship drama anymore. Our protagonist, Clary Fray (Katherine McNamara), has finally turned over to the dark side - which happened in the previous episode - but this week we get to see her in all her dark glory, siding with her evil brother Jonathan Morgenstern (Luke Baines), as her boyfriend, Jace Herondale (Dominic Sherwood), plays the undercover double agent trying to keep her grounded to the light, or whatever is left of it in her.

As Clary submitted to the darkness of the life-force rune that she shares with Jonathan, we see her being able to exercise better control on her actions, now that she has embraced her side. She doesn't hesitate to exploit Jace's love for her, as she tells Jonathan that her boyfriend's feelings for her are far more intense than his loyalty to the shadowhunters or the Institute, but soon we find out Jace also has ulterior motives of his own. Granted he joins Clary and Jonathan's evil team in the pursuit of finding the Morningstar Sword, but he does it to protect Clary from the sinister intentions that Jonathan is known to be capable of. 

Jace acts as an undercover agent to keep Clary safe from Jonathan's darkness. Source: Freeform

On the one hand, we have Jonathan and Clary bonding over this new mission and watching the sibling bond unfold is really something we haven't seen from either of the characters so far. But this new dynamic is rivaled by the relationship between Jace and the new, dark Clary, which is equally intriguing to watch. Jace puts into use his past experience with the demonic power of The Owl that had him under its control when it comes to dealing with the newer Clary, who is driven solely by the rune's powers. It not only helps him understand better where Clary's emotions and actions are coming from, but also helps him to bring her back from embracing the darkness completely, just the way she did to him when he was possessed by The Owl. 

The interesting thing about Jace's situation is obviously how he balances between his love for Clary and his loyalty to the shadowhunters. At times we see him going out of his way to prove his dedication to Clary and Jonathan's cause, but at other times he falters when Clary's original side comes out, thus striking the perfect dilemma which the evil brother-sister duo with an undercover third wheel tries to overcome. 


Speaking of overcoming crises, Clary's friends at the institute are still trying to figure out the correct concoction for the Heavenly Fire to prove successful in severing Clary and Jonathan's bond. This gives birth to another trio made up of Izzy Lightwood (Emeraude Toubia), Simon Lewis (Alberto Rosende), and Luke Garroway (Isaiah Mustafa) as they try to force the Glorious which has the capability of destroying any demonic entity, such as the life-force rune's power. 

Izzy, Simon, and Luke work on forging the Glorious sword. Source: Freeform

Luke gets the tools required to forge the magical sword, but one of the vital ingredients they need to give it true power is vampire blood. Now this should be an easy quest considering Simon is a vampire, but he is also terrified of needles. And this is exactly where Sizzy fans can rejoice and cheer because Izzy rises to the occasion and is able to convince Simon to do what needs to be done for Clary - giving fans of the duo some major couple goals as they evolve into more than just friends in this one episode. 

Maia goes through an ethical dilemma as she tries to choose between being an alpha and living a happy life with Jordan. Source: Freeform

But Sizzy isn't the only one achieving relationship milestones, as our newly appointed werewolf alpha Maia Roberts (Alisha Wainwright) finally rekindles her romance with her ex, Jordan Kyle, in the process of the two of them working to restore The Jade Wolf back to a safe environment for their kind. The biggest twist that could really surmount to something even bigger in the episodes to come is Maia's ethical dilemma once Jordan suggests the two of them could get away from all this tension by turning mundane again. It's a complicated situation for Maia who has just been bestowed with both the honor of being the alpha and the responsibilities that come with it because what she also wants is another shot at love and happiness with Jordan.

Yet Maia feeling torn apart is no comparison for Magnus Bane's (Harry Shum Jr.) torment over having been dumped by the love of his life, Alec Lightwood (Matthew Daddario.) Sure Alec did what he did just to save Magnus' life, but the latter doesn't know that. So, in a fit of rage and heartbreak, he decides to get every memory related to Alec wiped off his mind, but it is the process of him arriving at that decision that becomes particularly painful to witness if you're a hardcore Malec fan.



Flashbacks are aplenty and there's also a striking parallel drawn between what Malec thought their life together was going to be, and what it is right now - something that again makes us thank the writers for doing what they have done with this episode. For instance, the title of the episode comes from the Indonesian phrase for "I love you," which Magnus teaches Alec in one of the flashbacks. Right in the feels!

'Shadowhunters' airs on Mondays, at 8/7c, only on Freeform.