Sean 'Diddy' Combs pays touching tribute to Kim Porter and recalls how she helped him battle depression

During his eulogy speech, Diddy managed to touch upon the time when he first laid eyes on Porter, which was during a recording session at Uptown Records in the early 1990s


                            Sean 'Diddy' Combs pays touching tribute to Kim Porter and recalls how she helped him battle depression

It was a morose day for Sean 'Diddy' Combs, but he gave a heartfelt eulogy at his ex-girlfriend Kim Porter's funeral, speaking about how they first fell in love, along with revealing that it was with her help that he battled depression earlier this year. Porter received quite an emotional funeral in Columbus, Georgia on Saturday, where she was laid to rest next to her mother.

Diddy gave an almost 18-minute long speech, where he paid his heartfelt tribute to his ex-girlfriend and the mother of his kids. "Anybody who knows Kim, she's just a person you vibe with, you know? I can't put our relationship into a certain box," Diddy told the crowd, which included Usher, Mary J Blige, and Missy Elliot.

Sean 'P. Diddy' Combs and Kim Porter attend Sean 'P. Diddy' Combs 35th Birthday Celebration on November 4, 2004, in New York City. (Getty Images)
Sean 'P. Diddy' Combs and Kim Porter attend Sean 'P. Diddy' Combs 35th Birthday Celebration on November 4, 2004, in New York City. (Getty Images)

"She always told me, she felt like God sent her here to help me out. I'd be like 'Girl, what are you talking about'," he continued as the crowd laughed. "I didn't really understand how to love, I mean. We went through some circumstances. We didn't have a big family and all that and she just really started breaking down the exterior in me and the shell that I put up."

The rapper then revealed that he was "really depressed" at the beginning of the year and that it was Porter who helped him through the darkness. "I was getting older, and I just went through a dark, dark time," he said. "And even though we weren't together, she was that type of person. She would come over and... she was just like, 'Come on, Puff. You gotta get up. You gotta get up out the bed. You gotta get moving. You gotta get up'."



 

During his eulogy speech, Diddy also managed to touch upon the time when he first laid eyes on Porter, which was during a recording session at Uptown Records in the early 1990s. "God, I hope one day I get me a girl like that," he recalled thinking to himself at the time. 

"I would come into the office every day and she worked at the front desk," he continued. "And I would be so excited to come up in the elevator. To know that I was going to see her." He then said that even though he and Porter started out as friends, he soon became her "confidante".

Sean 'P. Diddy' Combs and girlfriend Kim Porter attend the Marc Jacobs Spring/Summer 2004 Collection at the Manhattan Armory during the 7th on Sixth Mercedes-Benz Fashion Week on September 15, 2003, in New York City. (Getty Images)
Sean 'P. Diddy' Combs and girlfriend Kim Porter attend the Marc Jacobs Spring/Summer 2004 Collection at the Manhattan Armory during the 7th on Sixth Mercedes-Benz Fashion Week on September 15, 2003, in New York City. (Getty Images)

"She was like my guidance, still is," he said. "I was just open. We fell in love and honestly, her love was too much for me to handle. It was a lot to handle, to take in. As time went on our relationship took so many changes from being boyfriend and girlfriend to being lovers, to be best friends. To being just straight up homies, like, someone you know you can count on. Somebody that has your back, you have their back."

Diddy then addressed the three children he shared with Porter, their son Christian, twin daughters Jessie James and D'Lila, as well as Porter's firstborn Quincy Brown. "Your mother instilled in me this, and I pledge in front of everyone now, I will always be there for y'all," he said to them. "I will always take care of you. Girls, we're about to enter in some different types of times. I want you to be able to talk to me about everything, and I mean everything, and I mean everything," he said as the crowd laughed and clapped.

Host Sean 'Diddy' Combs and Kim Porter with their twin daughters D'Lila Star Combs and Jessie James Combs pictured at 'The Real White Party' presented by Sean 'Diddy' Combs at the Combs' East Hampton estate on September 2, 2007, in East Hampton, New York. (Getty Images)
Host Sean 'Diddy' Combs and Kim Porter with their twin daughters D'Lila Star Combs and Jessie James Combs pictured at 'The Real White Party' presented by Sean 'Diddy' Combs at the Combs' East Hampton estate on September 2, 2007, in East Hampton, New York. (Getty Images)