Ariana Grande's fiance Pete Davidson talks candidly about childhood suicide attempt and why he fears she will dump him

The 24-year-old comedian opens up about a suicide attempt as a child after his father's death and why he fears Ariana Grande will dump him


                            Ariana Grande's fiance Pete Davidson talks candidly about childhood suicide attempt and why he fears she will dump him

Pete Davidson, Ariana Grande's fiance, gets candid about how he tried to kill himself as a child after the death of his father in the September 11 attacks. He admitted that he has been "in and out of mental health facilities" since his childhood. 

The 24-year-old comedian revealed that he had attempted to drown himself. As reported by Variety, Davidson said, "I tried to drown myself in the pool when I was in the fourth or fifth grade. I was trying to get my head stuck in the ladder in the deep end, so I would not be able to get up. But I’m too much of a p****, and my head is too small". His father was working as a firefighter when he passed away in the New York terrorist attack. 

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Davidson admitted that the pain of losing his father and the unfortunate tragedy altered the course of his life. "If my dad didn’t die, I wouldn’t be a comic. I’d be a construction worker in Staten Island or a basketball coach," he shared. "I learned what death was. And you’re not really supposed to learn about that until high school, when one of your friends falls asleep in the garage, or whatever." 

Davidson was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and admittedly suffers from anxiety. He also fears that the love of his life Ariana Grande will dump him. "I’m still convinced she’s blind or hit her head really hard. Something is going to happen, and she’s going to be like, ‘What the f*** is this thing doing around?" Pete shared. Davidson added that he did not plan to get married: "I never thought I’d meet anyone like her," referring to Grande. 

"I can’t even put into words how great of a person she is. I could cry. She’s the f—ing coolest, hottest, nicest person I’ve ever met. I’m f—ing living the goddamn dream. I feel like I’m living in a fantasyland," he summed up his present state of mind. 

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The 'Saturday Night Live' star has always been open about his mental health issues and also checked into rehab in 2017. He feared that cannabis was responsible for causing his "mental breakdowns".

"I’ve been a pothead forever. I started having these mental breakdowns where I would, like, freak out and then not remember what happened after. Blind rage," he shared. "The last few years have been real rough with me. I took all these mental health classes and really spent a lot of time getting me good," he continued. 

Instead of feeling better and finishing his stay, Davidson, unfortunately, felt a lot worse and said that he then figured that it was a medical condition and not drugs. "I got sober for three months and I was just like never sadder and everything was just way worse. I found out I have BPD, which is Borderline Personality Disorder. One of my psychiatrists [diagnosed me]," Davidson said.