Demi Moore took years to get over 'nightmare' of splitting from Ashton Kutcher: 'It really played havoc with her self confidence'
Demi Moore has opened up in her book about her struggles with love, loss, and aging in Tinseltown.
The 56-year-old actress wrote in her new memoir 'Inside Out' about how her relationship and subsequent marriage to Ashton Kutcher took a toll on her mental and physical health, thereafter heightening her insecurities about aging in Hollywood, People reports.
“It really played havoc with her self confidence,” an industry source told People of Moore's split from Kutcher, 41. “Demi was confused about her life and what direction her career would take as she got older.”
The pair began dating in 2003 after they met at a dinner with mutual friends. They subsequently tied the knot and were married from 2005 to 2013.
Moore revealed in her memoir that she suffered a miscarriage at six months early on in their relationship, and blamed herself for the mishap.
As a coping mechanism, she started abusing Vicodin and alcohol.
Furthermore, she took "years" to get over their 2011 separation and eventual divorce in 2013 -- amid reports that Kutcher had cheated on her.
“Separating from Ashton was just a nightmare for her. It took her years to get over it,” the source said. “She was always very insecure about their age difference and it was devastating that Ashton left her. She had so much self-blame and resentment towards herself after the split. She was really struggling mentally and didn’t take care of herself.”
After a long time, Moore is finally getting to a much healthier place, per the source.
“She really has changed a lot for the better in the past few years. You can tell that she is much happier and enjoys her life more,” the insider added. “She goes to therapy and works on being a positive and kind person to herself.”
The book, which hits the shelves on September 24, has reportedly been cathartic for Moore.
“She wanted to free herself of the trauma and heartbreak endured after her split from Ashton, but it was a struggle,” an industry source said. “Demi has been trying to improve her life, gain self-esteem and get healthy for several years. Spilling it all out in a personal memoir is a way to close the old door and open new ones.”