'I need them': Billie Eilish would 'rather die' than not become a mother
Singer-songwriter Billie Eilish would "rather die" than not become a mother, but she also "dreads" it. The 20-year-old 'Lovely' hitmaker also feels anxious about protecting her future kids when they grow up, as it is a "scary" time to be young in America at the moment.
"[I would] rather die [than not have kids], I need them. The older I get, the more I experience things, I just think, ugh, what am I going to do when my kid thinks that this is the right thing to do and I'm, like, no, it's not! And they won't listen to me," the musician told The Times. Talking about the Texas shooting, Eilish asked, "Why is it okay to be scared to go to school? You go to school and be prepared for a life-changing traumatic experience or dying. What? Who? Where is the logic there?"
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On being asked what gets her excited, she said, "Uh, I'm excited to play games. I love playing games. I'll play games with anybody at any time. Literally anything." The award-winning star spoke about the process of touring and how it feels, "It's kind of a crazy thing that a human does, touring. It is so unnatural for us as people to have such high highs and such low lows. It feels like a blur. It’s like you're living five different lives at once, bonkers but amazing."
The 'Bad Guy' star's music progresses as she grows and evolves into a person. "Every album is always received so differently. Because it's a different version of me and a different version of them [the fans] and I'm growing and they’re growing. We’re growing together," she explains. But Eilish also feels a great sense of responsibility as she wants to protect these young individuals. "I really feel such a strong need to protect young people and young girls. It's so tough," she says.
"I remember being 15 and people would say, you'll understand when you’re older, and I'd be, like, what the f*ck. Of course, I understand now. It's pretty upsetting when you do get older and you're, like, 'Oh, dammit, I did not,'" Eilish explains. She talked about her complicated relationship with her body, "My relationship with my body has been a truly horrible, terrible thing since I was 11. I love that my body is mine and that it's with me everywhere I go. I kind of think of my body as my friend. My ugly friend! It's complicated. But what are you gonna do?"
Eilish spoke about the hypocrisy of the world and the double standards it has for women in particular. "No matter what you do, it's wrong and right. Wearing baggy clothes, nobody is attracted to me, I feel incredibly unlovable and unsexy and not beautiful, and people shame you for not being feminine enough. Then you wear something more revealing and they're, like, you're such a fat cow whore. I'm a slut and I'm a sell-out, and I'm just like every other celebrity selling their bodies, and woah! What the f*ck do you want? It's a crazy world for women and women in the public eye."
