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'I hit my limit with Life': Heather Matarazzo's tweets about 'struggling to survive' spark concern

The 'Princess Diaries' actor talked about reaching breaking point in her tweets. She said 'something broke' and she's 'done struggling just to survive'

Heather Matarazzo of 'The Princess Diaries' fame allegedly remarked in a series of now-deleted tweets that she is "struggling just to survive" and has "hit [her] limit with Life." "I have hit my limit with whatever games the Universe is playing. I am done. I am tired. I truly feel at a f***ing loss," the 39-year-old actress exclaimed.

The actress shared her hardships with trying to make it in Hollywood in a stream of consciousness post on May 11, Wednesday, according to BuzzFeed. "I feel at a loss because I feel I have done THE WORK, for a long time, with no complaint," she added. "I have taken the disappointments, the rejections, etc., and maintained that rejection is redirection. I have had continual FAITH in the Universe, but today, something broke. I feel cast." Hollywood and the music world are recently mourning the loss of Naomi Judd, who her daughters, revealed was suffering from mental health problems and so sought to end her life. 'General Hospital' star Lindsey Pearlman also was reportedly suffering from depression before she decided to die by suicide in February.

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In another deleted post, she expressed her desire for a "life-changing win." "I've given my life to acting for over 30 years. And am done struggling just to survive," she remarked. "I just need a win. A life-changing win. Cause this ain't it. F***."

In 2008, the New York native confirmed her engagement to musician Caroline Murphy, but the duo split four years later. In November 2018, Matarazzo married comedian and writer Heather Turman. 

The actor's tweets left her fans and social media users worried for her. One concerned individual wrote on Twitter, "@HeatherMatarazz has deleted the tweets in question. I hope this means that you feel better Heather," and another one wrote, "sending love to heather matarazzo <3 i’ve loved her on screen since welcome to the dollhouse." One wrote: "This resonates. It’s OK to feel “done” w your career and want to do something COMPLETELY DIFFERENT. Can be when you’ve had a good career, or when you haven’t. Grinding away isn’t the answer."

A fan wrote on Instagram: "Just read your tweets and want to encourage you. You’re not alone in your thoughts and life can be so beautiful but you have to fight to find your place and space.... maybe Hollywood isn’t the healthiest place to be a part of for your soul? Maybe the rejection is redirection in a totally new space? Consider exploring other options and it and when a role is meant for you- it will be yours."

Since the 2001 Disney film and its 2004 sequel, Matarazzo has had a few acting projects. She has appeared in films such as "Welcome to the Dollhouse," "Scream 3," "Sisters," and "Saved!" and has a Cameo account. "The Mattachine Family" and "Paint," according to her IMDb biography, are two more post-production credits.

This isn't the first time Matarazzo has been open about his struggles in the business. "I don't know if I took a step back from Hollywood, or Hollywood took a step back from me," she told the Guardian in 2017. She also claimed in the same interview that she considered suicide after months of fruitless auditions in 2009. "I was like, 'What kind of sick and twisted universe is this?' The fact that I'm still here is a miracle in itself," she said.

"But in reality, it's just not the experience," Matarazzo said of people's assumption that all actresses live "untouchable, beautiful lives." In 2017, she was on the verge of becoming a Lyft driver had said. "Most people think that I probably get paid a lot of money. But I really don't, and most working actors don't. I drive a beat-up f***ing Prius and I just bought my first pair of new shoes in over two years," Matarazzo said.

If you or someone you know is considering suicide, please contact the National Suicide Hotline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or text the Crisis Text Line (text HELLO to 741741).