Teen Mom OG star Catelynn Lowell worries fans with cryptic 'I'm scared' message
Lowell and her husband recently lost their unborn child to a miscarriage, post which the reality TV star had sought medical treatment at a rehab for suicidal thoughts.
Teen Mom OG star Catelynn Lowell has caused a matter of concern among her fans and followers after posting a rather cryptic message on her Instagram, on Friday, July 6. The said post by the 26-year-old reality TV star, was a picture of a quote, that read, “I’m scared of the future. I’m scared of the past. I’m nervous at the moment.” She also added to the caption, “I’m so scared right now … but I know that everything that is supposed to happen will happen … whatever my destiny will be .… I got this ….. I’m strong.”
Her followers were quick to follow up with comments of support, love and encouraging words to comfort the Conquering Chaos author, who has opened up about her battle with mental illnesses a fair few times in the past. “Catelynn you are a wonderful woman who has a story that has impacted so many other women out there. You are strong and courageous and I pray that you never forget that,” one of her followers wrote.
Another added, “You are a warrior! Whatever it is you’ve got this!” Even fellow Teen Mom star Jenelle Evans couldn't help herself from showing her love and support, and ended up commenting, “Same here, girl.” Lowell herself had reportedly suffered from suicidal thoughts, following which she had agreed to and sought help for her mental health struggles back in November 2017.
Speaking about her situation, she had written on Twitter, "Well today I thought of every way to kill myself .. so I’m going to treatment". She had also told RadarOnline,"I’m taking the time I need right now to take good care of myself. On November 17th I thought of every way possible to commit suicide, from wrapping a belt around my neck to just running my car into an electric pole".
Even with the intensity of the ordeal, Lowell had managed to stay positive throughout and had said, "I’m seeking treatment and I WILL get better. This won’t last forever". A proud Tyler had also taken to social media to show his support and encouragement for his wife, saying, "when she thought she had no choices left, she reached out & decided to LIVE today! My life would be desolate without her in it. You are beautiful, strong, worthy, & loved".
Post her prescribed stay at an Arizona rehab facility in February, Lowell had taken to her Instagram to share an inspiring message about self-worth, that said, “I am enough. I am full of sparkle & compassion. I genuinely want to make the world a better place. I love hard. I practice kindness. I’m not afraid of the truth. I am loyal, adventurous, supportive, and surprising. I am a woman. I am enough. I make mistakes, but I own them and learn from them. Sometimes I make a lot of mistakes — Molly Mahar.”
It hasn't been an easy year for Lowell at all, as she and husband, Tyler Baltierra, lost their unborn child to a miscarriage, which they shared on the February 26 episode of their MTV reality show. “That baby may not have been fully grown in the womb… but it was fully grown in our hearts. For every parent out there who has lost a baby… it is not your fault & it is more than acceptable & understandable to mourn the loss of that baby & take your time to grieve,” Tyler had tweeted at the time.
After the miscarriage, Tyler had opened up about how the two — as a couple — had completely shut down. "We sat in the bed and cried. Just held each other. There’s nothing you can really do," Tyler added to the tweet. Lowell herself went on to receive medical help and then it was confirmed that their worst fears were true. It was after this that she decided to check into a treatment center for battling suicidal thoughts.
In the very same episode, Tyler had later broken down upon learning his wife's condition. "When you love someone like that and they say that, it’s like..." he shared as he started to tear up. Tyler's producer, Kerthy added, "It’s incredible that you were able to find a treatment facility so quickly. Cause once someone says they want to kill themselves, you can’t f*ck around".
A teary-eyed Tyler agreed with Kerthy and shared, "I really wanted that baby. Life’s just not giving me a break right now," he further added. Once the episode had aired, he took to Twitter to share,"That baby may not have been fully grown in the womb...but it was fully grown in our hearts. For every parent out there who has lost a baby...it is not your fault & it is more than acceptable & understandable to mourn the loss of that baby & take your time to grieve #ParentStrong".
Not long after that, Tyler himself had opened up about his own mental health issues, coming out as bipolar. He admitted he was staying away from medicines and opting for more natural options, but it hasn't always helped his cause. "Whats wrong with this brain of mine. How can I just sit here & build up so much f**king rage & pain inside," Tyler mentioned on Twitter. "It’s like I’m my own worst enemy & fighting this demon inside of me possesses all of my energy, so where’s the preacher at? I’ve been cursed & I don’t think I’m coming back."
Lowell has been married to Tyler for almost three years now, and the two have some heavy history together, having known each other since the seventh grade. They had started dating in the year 2005 and after 10 long years, decided to finally tie the knot in August of 2015. Their wedding was a grand affair with around 154 guests which also included Teen Mom OG co-stars Maci Bookout and Amber Portwood, as well as Teen Mom 2 stars Kailyn Lowry and Jarvi Marroquin.
At that time, Tyler had told Us Weekly, "I was bawling like a baby," referring to the moment he saw Lowell walking down the aisle for the first time. The happy couple share a 3-year-old daughter called Nova, but that hasn't stopped media outlets from speculating their 'divorce.'
Recently a social media name change from Lowell's side sparked divorce rumors, and speaking to Us Weekly about the issue, she had said: “Tyler and I are not getting a divorce. Couples go through ups and downs. That’s normal life,” she told Us at the time. “We are a solid couple that will work through anything life throws at us."