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'I was so desperate': Drew Barrymore gets candid as she tells Madison Beer why she attempted suicide twice

Drew Barrymore told Madison Beer that she had once been 'so desperate' that she 'did not know where else to turn' during an episode of 'The Drew Barrymore Show'
UPDATED APR 28, 2023
Drew Barrymore opened up to Madison Beer about her two suicide attempts recently (Paul Morigi, Kevin Winter/Getty Images, Twitter/@DrewBarrymoreTV)
Drew Barrymore opened up to Madison Beer about her two suicide attempts recently (Paul Morigi, Kevin Winter/Getty Images, Twitter/@DrewBarrymoreTV)

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LOS ANGELES, CALIFORNIA: Drew Barrymore and singer-influencer Madison Beer talked candidly about their suicide attempts on Wednesday's (April 26, 2023) episode of 'The Drew Barrymore Show'. The talk show host revealed that she had once been "so desperate" that she "did not know where else to turn."

To promote her new book 'The Half of It', Beer appeared on the daytime talk show. The 24-year-old, who was endorsed by Justin Bieber, revealed her struggles with mental health in her latest memoir. Barrymore, who said she had "been there" and can connect to the pop star's troubles "on levels that are difficult to talk about", inquired about Beer's "attempts at escaping life."


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'Putting on this facade and living this role'

The 24-year-old singer discussed depression and despair with the host of the show. Beer, who earlier this month claimed to have attempted suicide, said that she had in fact thought about ending her life twice, as reported by New York Post.

"I got to the point that things caught up with me that I had never acknowledged, I never wanted to face," Beer said. "I feel like I was sort of putting on this facade and living this role I had been assigned for so long and it just all caught up to me one day and then one day turned into weeks and months and, honestly, I feel like it was at least year that I was always in this sort of, like, suicidal ideation mindset," she continued.

Before she actually made an unsuccessful attempt, she claimed that thinking about suicide at the end of each day "felt very normal" for her. "It just all became too much and that’s when I also decided, ‘OK, clearly there’s something more for me to live for.’ I wasn’t successful and I want to do something with that," the author said. The influencer revealed that she "always used to say to my best friend, ‘I want a temporary death’" to escape her chaotic life at that time.

Beer further revealed to Barrymore, "Sitting on a balcony and debating jumping off was just something that I kind of did." Beer added that it had actually happened twice, but she would "brush off" the second occurrence, indicating how "not serious" it had become to her by that point.


Beer decided she had to speak up after realizing she wasn't the only one who experienced negative emotions. Every day of the week, Beer was also provided counseling. "I just really committed to getting to better, whatever better even means. I started to love myself the same way I try to love other people," the singer added. In the sitting-down interview, Barrymore revealed that she had likewise struggled with suicidal thoughts.

'I was so desperate'

Barrymore also revealed that she had considered suicide twice, shocking the crowd with her admission. Barrymore said that she was "desperate" and unsure of what else to do at the time. In her opening statement, she said, "Everybody struggles, so I related on levels that are difficult to talk about and I want to thank you because you’re discussing stuff right now that I want to make you feel safe about because I've been there," as reported by Daily Mail.

Barrymore, who has been candid about her attempt at suicide when she was 14 and spent a year and a half in psychiatric treatment, spoke to her guest about her own experience. "Me as well, twice. I don’t know if I really wanted to leave the earth," The '50 First Dates' star admitted, "I was so desperate that I did not know where else to turn." Barrymore has already spoken openly about her early drug addiction and her journey to recovery.


Drew Barrymore attempted suicide at age of 14

Barrymore made her debut in a commercial when she was just 11 months old and soon rose to fame. Although she made her acting debut in 'Altered States', 'ET the Extra-Terrestrial' was actually where she found her greatest success. However, beneath the surface, the Hollywood star's life was not as glamorous as it appeared.

As per Famous Daily, at the age of 14, Barrymore attempted suicide in July 1989. Her early years were marked by heavy drinking, drug abuse, and partying, which resulted in multiple stays in rehab. Barrymore's wayward lifestyle was frequently detailed in entertainment headlines.

After her teen years, Barrymore rose to fame in Hollywood and now has her own talk show. Later, she released an autobiography titled 'Little Girl Lost' that detailed her turbulent past.

Drew Barrymore speaks onstage at Jamie Lee Curtis: Tribute to 45 years of Halloween and Laurie Strode, Moderated by Drew Barrymore during New York Comic Con 2022 on October 08, 2022 in New York City.
Drew Barrymore during New York Comic Con 2022 on October 8, 2022, in New York City (Astrid Stawiarz/Getty Images for ReedPop)