Demi Moore's daughter Tallulah Willis reveals she was in the 'deepest suicidal hole' she had ever experienced in new dance video
Demi Moore's daughter, Tallulah Willis took to Instagram to share a video of her dancing in a bikini. While the video showed Willis having the time of her life, she reflected that it was also the time when she was going through suicidal thoughts. She noted that when she first posted the video people reflected on how cheerful she was. However, Willis added that mental health struggles are often hidden behind the faces that people want others to see. "When I filmed this video I remember everyone telling me over and over how much they wished they had my energy, my freeness, ownership of self," she noted.
" When this video was filmed I was 3 months into the deepest suicidal hole I had ever been in," she confessed. Willis noted that she had been through various suicidal phases and even though she was not ready to tell her story, she wanted people to know that she was all ears for anyone who wanted to share the story of their struggle.
"We are not what we show. I’m not ready to share my story yet, but I’m with you, I see you, I am you, and I love you. Pain is a pain," she said. Willis further noted that each and every person goes through different ways of dealing with their struggles.
"It’s different and enters each of our lives through a myriad of ways, but each electric stab or dull ache is real. The kind of pain that you can’t see, the pain that lives in the hollow space behind your throat," she wrote. Willis noted that she still gets fearful of the decisions she might make while battling with her inner demons but added that she stays hopeful.
"I'm scared of my brain and the capacity for the pain it has and will continue to bear. My fight is daily and for the duration of my life and each day I choose to find the glowed moments, a theft giggle, or true peaceful pause, I know I was brave that day," she noted. Willis added that the best way to deal with the struggles is by being positive and encouraging towards oneself.
"I like to be better with words, as an armor and a way to help my brain comprehend my feelings and my ego is grumbling that this is a shit ode to something that lives so close to my heart, but my ego can eat a bag of dicks," she wrote. " I have a great ole bunch of acronyms that explain my diagnosis, and slowly they are no longer scary to me. Try try TRY to be sweet to yourself, find every little bean of love you can and absorb it."
