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Bobby Brown visits Whitney Houston's grave for FIRST TIME, says she would be alive if they stayed together

In a clip from Bobby Brown's A&E documentary titled 'Biography: Bobby Brown', the singer visits ex-wife Houston and their daughter's grave for the first time

Singer-songwriter Bobby Brown feels his former wife, actress and singer Whitney Houston would still be alive had the two stayed together and fought their drug addictions. In a clip from the 53-year-old's A&E documentary titled 'Biography: Bobby Brown', Brown visits Houston and their daughter's grave for the first time.

In the clip from the documentary obtained by Daily Mail, Brown visited the Fairview Cemetery in Westfield, New Jersey, and said, "I think we could have helped each other out. I think she would still be here if we hadn't divorced. I wasn't there. I beat myself about it because I wasn't there. I wish I could have been there for her."

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"We had made our beds and had to lie in them. We always felt that our love was strong enough to overcome any obstacle put in front of us. We would still be together if it wasn't for drugs. Drugs got the best of us." He claims that Houston, who died aged 48, is in touch with him by visiting him in his dreams. Brown also talked about his daughter Bobbi Kristina Brown, who was found unconscious in a bathtub in her home and died from lobar pneumonia after being in a coma for six months.

He revealed, "They told me she would not live a normal life. I was prepared to care for her for the rest of my life, being a vegetable. But my daughter would not like to live like that. Whitney came to me in dreams and (said) 'let my baby go!' And that is what I had to do. Being her father meant everything to me. To know how special she was can only be seen through love. My daughter is with me every day. She is one of my angels."

Addressing Houston and their daughter, Brown said, "I brought you guys some flowers. Sorry, I have not come by. Sorry, this is my first time. But you guys know I don't like cemeteries. I know you are looking down watching me, watching your siblings. I hope you are taking care of little Bobby I know you guys are frightened up there. I miss you guys so much. Y'all take care of each other okay. See you later. I love you."

"Me and Whitney's sex life was pretty intense. It did not matter where we were. It was about a certain look. She looked at me a certain way and it was on and poppin'. There was something about her that made me smile. Her smell, this certain perfume she wore," the popular musician added.

Talking about their drug addiction, Bobby said, "I walked in and saw her doing a line of coke. It was a shocker to me seeing her sniff for the first time. It was then I realized we had more in common than I thought. I was new to it and I guess she had been doing it for a while. That became a problem for us in our marriage. After I got married that is when I started using hard drugs. We were going through the stresses of stardom, fame, money, drugs, and rock'n'roll."

He continued, "We started not working, getting high and it became a part of our daily routine. I used to smoke preempt, crack cocaine inside weed. You roll them up. I was so high. I thought Whitney was trying to kill me. I ended up running through a field. I had a 57 magnum on me, cocaine, crack and weed in this. My addiction affected my career big time."

"Before I went to jail I had started using heroin, along with crack and weed. I was only sniffing, not shooting it. I was able to kick heroin and crack in jail. I did it on my own. I knew I had moved into a different realm. Whitney was still using hard drugs. That is when the problems started with me and her I wanted her to become sober like I was but it was really hard for both of us to stay together and be together," Bobby concluded.

'Biography: Bobby Brown' airs on Monday, May 30, and Tuesday, May 31 at 8 pm ET on A&E Network.