'Mummy, I'm sorry for this': Five-year-old boy dies of cancer in mother's arms and apologizes to family for ordeal

Charlie's mother slammed NHS bosses who she said "allowed rich families" to benefit while poor families were neglected after Charlie was denied a liver transplant on the NHS.


                            'Mummy, I'm sorry for this': Five-year-old boy dies of cancer in mother's arms and apologizes to family for ordeal

A five-year-old boy passed away from cancer in his mother's arms after having apologized to his family for the traumatic ordeal the illness had put them through.

Charlie Proctor, from Accrington, Lancashire was given only days to live by doctors last month, after having been diagnosed with a rare form of liver cancer in the year 2016. His parents had desperately attempted to raise enough money to get him an organ transplant in the US. However, they only managed to get less than half of the £855,580 that they needed. Charlie's smile had captured many people's hearts from his 'Charlie's Chapter' FB page, where his mother would frequently post updates of his hepatoblastoma and the toll that it was taking. 



 

On Saturday evening, Charlie passed away in his mother Amber Schofield's arms after telling her, "Mummy I'm sorry for this". Amber shared a picture of Charlie with angel wings to spread the news of the child's untimely and tragic death. Many people have been following the journey of Charlie including pop star Pink who shared the family's situation and crowdfunding page with her 5.1 million followers.

Amber posted a picture of Charlie with her and her husband Ben Proctor and wrote, "Last night at 23:14 my best friend, my world, Charlie, took his final breath. He fell asleep peacefully cuddled in my arms with daddy's arms wrapped around us. Our hearts are aching. The world has lost an incredible little boy. Charlie, you gave me chance to be a mum. You have been, not only our biggest inspiration but you have been an inspiration to thousands of people all over the world". 



 

"You showed me what love really means Charlie. Now it's time to fly, I am so, so proud of you. You fought this so hard. My baby, I'm hurting so much. I will forever miss you baby bum. Sweet dreams my baby," she continued. 

Amber slammed NHS bosses who she said "allowed rich families" to benefit while poor families were neglected after Charlie was denied a liver transplant on the NHS. The family also claimed that they were told by medics that a liver transplant "would not be worth it" since Charlie's cancer was at a very advanced stage. The cancer soon spread from Charlie's liver to his lungs and his health began to deteriorate. 

Over the weekend, Amber posted on Charlie's page and said, "This will be the last photo I post of Charlie. As the days go by he deteriorates more and more. He no longer looks like Charlie. He's so thin, I can see and feel every bone in his tiny body, his sunken face, his rolling eyes. Where has my chunky baby gone. Chunky from birth! He weighed 9'11lb! I want them to remember how he looked, how cheeky he was, how hilarious, how grumpy he was because right now Charlie isn't any of those". 



 

"He's sad, he's tired, he's fed up and depressed. I don't know what to do any more' are his main words. Today, he's been very agitated, wanting to lay down, sit up, lay in bed, then on the beanbag, then on the sofa, then back upstairs and so on... Charlie, at one point, turned to me and said in the most quiet, panting voice, 'Mummy, I'm so sorry for this' he was sorry because he wanted to move again and he felt he had to apologize for that?" she continued. 

"So now I know he also feels like he's somewhat 'in the way'. My heart broke! No child should feel the emotions Charlie is feeling. No Child! No parent should watch their child slowly go. Having to watch them deteriorate in this way is the most painful thing anyone will ever feel. If Charlie's fate is to go, then I'd of rather the angels took him weeks ago before he suffered any more. His AFP is that high now that the machine can no longer read them," she added. 

"His liver function are the same apart from his Bilirubin, which has doubled causing Charlie's skin color to be yellow. After this, with every update, I will share photos of Charlie in his better days. How can I miss him so much when he's led beside me? But I do. I miss him.. I miss just having a chat, a cuddle that doesn't cause pain. I miss squeezing him and kissing him all over. I miss his smile, knowing I won't see that smile again other than in pictures, I will never hear charlie laugh again ????" she shared. 

"Please pray for a miracle ???????? hold your babies tight and cuddle and kiss them so much. You don't realize how lucky you are. We all take life for granted," Amber concluded.

Around £360,000 had been pledged in Charlie's name but Amber claimed that "cancer is a rich man's game" and they did not have enough to make it. 



 

In an earlier update, she wrote, "The NHS has done a lot for us but this is where the road ends as far as they are concerned, and as a mother, it is difficult to accept that my son will die purely because we aren't rich enough to save him. Cancer is a rich man's game. The more money you have, the more likely it is that your child will live. How is that fair? It makes me feel sick that he could die because we aren't rich. It makes me feel so helpless".