YouTuber Trisha Paytas breaks down saying she's 'uncomfortable' in her female body: 'I’ve always wanted a penis'
YouTube celebrity Trisha Paytas tore up as she spoke about her gender identity just weeks after being ridiculed online for coming out as a transgender man while still identifying as a woman.
In a bid to clarify her controversial comments, the 31-year-old Celebrity Big Brother star appeared on October 23 episode of The Doctors. A psychotherapist on the show told her he believes she is transgender.
"I don't like labels. For me, saying I’m transgender was just a thing to say because it’s what people want to label me as — a female, who’s a male," Trisha explained. "I was born female, but even from a young age I had a hormonal imbalance where I knew I wasn't female."
Trisha was then asked if she had considered physically transitioning into a male. The 31-year-old said she hasn't, but noted she does want male genitalia.
"I’ve always wanted a penis," she said. "I always have because it just makes dating easier. I’ve dated gay men and this is what offended people in my video is when I date gay men, a lot of gay men think I’m not man enough because I don’t have a penis."
According to her, she has "always been very uncomfortable in the female body."
Trisha revealed she has always thought of herself as a man since an early age, and that her job as a stripper and escort was only meant to "give guys what they want" for money.
"I still do adult work — not porn, but I do nudity and stuff like that because it what makes the money," she said. "It's what my job is, so I don't consider transitioning because my job is this."
Psychotherapist Mike Dow, who was present during the interview, told her that the conflicted feelings she was experiencing didn't "fit under the normal idea of what a transgender person is."
"I actually believe you are a transgender person," he told Trisha.
"The fact that your assigned sex at birth was female, but in your brain, you feel male, that, to me, meets the classification for a transgender person," he added. "It's not so much if you ever have a surgery. It's about the way you feel."
After hearing the doctor's words, Trisha broke down in tears.
"I wasn't going to cry," she said. "You're just the first person out of LGBTQ that I don't know on a personal level, that's accepted me. It means a lot because so many people think I'm faking this and it's just so hard."
Trisha is popular on YouTube for her "mukbang" videos, where she's seen binge eating in front of a camera.