Model reveals how years of abuse by her mother turned her into a sex addict
The model revealed that she had suppressed her childhood memories till she was in her late 20s, but that only led to her going into depression, and then pushed her onto drugs
Even though she did end up becoming a successful model, Nikki DuBose was only a small kid aged nine, when she was sexually abused for five long years by her artist mom, Sandy Pierce. The 33-year-old recently came forward with her own story of sexual abuse, further claiming that the incident had left her to become a sex addict in her life.
DuBose revealed that she had a rather “close but really complicated” relationship with her mother. As a small kid growing up in South Carolina, DuBose's childhood memories consisted of watching her mother carry out sexual attacks and witnessing a lot of domestic abuse.
In a conversation with the Sun, she said: “It started with me taking baths. When I was around eight or nine, my mum would (as she called it) ‘take my temperature’ a lot in the bathroom. There were other things that happened."
She further added, "Her sexual behavior escalated until I was 13. It was a very confusing time for me. She forced me to watch her commit sexual acts when we were alone in the bedroom; she would masturbate in front of me. She would tickle me inappropriately, touch my breasts and spank my butt, all under the pretense that it was a joke."
Although DuBose did try talking to her father about it, who was divorced from her mother since she was a two-year-old toddler, as well as the police but she said she used to constantly live in the fear that she would be killed if the truth came out in the open.
As a 13-year-old teenager that the police came and removed her from the house. The model revealed that she had suppressed her childhood memories till she was in her late 20s, but that only led to her going into depression, and then pushed her onto drugs and parties from the age of 13.
She further said that her mother suffered from her own demons - alcohol addiction, bipolar and a dissociative identity disorder. Due to her mother's disturbed mental health, DuBose became a sex addict and slept with multiple people in a single day, including a lot of strangers and eventually her own boss.
She added: “As a child, what happens around you, sexually shapes how you behave later on and my knowledge of sex was perverse and abusive. It was normal for me to talk to many men and to think about myself in a very sexual way. I thought that hooking up with loads of guys was normal. It's learned behavior. I knew it wasn't right, but I couldn't help it. Acting out and sleeping with men was an escape for me at the time."
It was only after her mother died aged 45, in an alcohol-linked car accident in 2012, that DuBose decided to get help regarding her situation and take steps to re-evaluate her life. She gave up her successful modeling career in order to get away from the industry since it acted as a "trigger for her addictive personality."
DuBose, who is now an author of her own memoir titled 'Washed Away: From Darkness to Light,' has penned down her accounts of her childhood and time in the modeling industry. “When I started telling people that my mom had sexually abused me, they didn't believe me,” she revealed.
"Psychologically, we want to believe that women are nurturers and that they will take care of their children, so not a lot of people talk about when a woman sexually abuses a little girl."