'Total Bellas': Nikki is having a hard time moving on from her split with John Cena

'Total Bellas' Season 4 follows Nikki Bella as she moves forward with her new life as a single woman and dips her toe back in the dating pool for the first time in almost a decade.


                            'Total Bellas': Nikki is having a hard time moving on from her split with John Cena

It's no secret that Nikki Bella's split from longtime boyfriend John Cena has been hard for her - but you'll see just how much in the new season of 'Total Bellas'. Season 4 follows Nikki as she moves forward with her new life as a single woman and dips her toe back in the dating pool for the first time in almost a decade.

Brie Bella (L) and Nikki Bella attend the People's Choice Awards 2018 at Barker Hangar on November 11, 2018 in Santa Monica, California.
Brie Bella (L) and Nikki Bella attend the People's Choice Awards 2018 at Barker Hangar on November 11, 2018 in Santa Monica, California.

Nikki wants to move away from all the things that remind her of John and the relationship she's lost and she decides to spontaneously move to Los Angeles. What makes matters troublesome is that while her move is okay with Brie, she's mad at her sister because she had moved to Tampa because she felt like Nikki needed her at the time. The two have been a constant support for each other throughout their careers, especially when Nikki had her heartbreak. 

Nikki and John split up just weeks before they had decided to tie the knot in May earlier this year. Nikki broke the news to her fans on Twitter saying that it was a very difficult decision to make for them. The split was mutual. However, the two had been having issues much before the split. In one of the teaser clips of the twins reality show, 'Total Bellas', the couple was seen crying and it looked like they were discussing their possible future together - which didn't look too bright. "So we really want to call this off?" Nikki had asked John in the clip. 

Actor John Cena and Nikki Bella attend the premiere of Paramount Pictures' 'Daddy's Home 2' at The Regency Village Theatre on November 5, 2017 in Westwood, California.
Actor John Cena and Nikki Bella attend the premiere of Paramount Pictures' 'Daddy's Home 2' at The Regency Village Theatre on November 5, 2017 in Westwood, California.

After the shocking announcement, they did get back together in July to make things work. However, it didn't happen. At the time, Nikki shared, "I feel like I've ruined everyone's fairy tale. My heart hurts so bad". Nikki spoke about their canceled wedding on her show 'Total Bellas' where she said, "It just sucks. I wish it could be different, and I think that's why I've had almost six years of working on us and fighting and just taking in a lot. I just feel like I've hit the point that I'm just so exhausted and done."  

In the new season, she does talk about how much of a toll its taken on her. "He was my rock. He was the one who always lifted me up and its kicked me in the a** and kicked me in the face to realize that I'd let go of my number one supporter," she says reflecting on the past. "I just want to find one place called home and not live out of an office or a hotel room," she continued before adding, "Its time for me to move on." 

 



 

 

Nikki seems like she wants to walk on the edge and it will definitely make you think that she's a little reckless and less than a mile away from going completely bonkers. She's stronger than ever too - she's looking for strength to get through what has happened this year. The season premiere also gives us a peek into what it is like to have a relationship like she did in the public eye. Right now, it only seems like Nikki has had enough of being known as John's girlfriend and wants her identity back. She desperately looks forward to the day she would be known as just herself and no one's ex. 

The season premiere of 'Total Bellas' will definitely have you at the edge of your seat, for sure. There's a lot going on with Nikki and Brie - careers, love life, babies - but one thing is for certain, Nikki is on her way to finding a new life. However, it doesn't mean it's going to be easy. 

Catch the season premiere of 'Total Bellas' on January 13 at 9 pm ET/PT on E!.