'I was still in love with him': Monica Lewinsky contemplated suicide when her affair with Bill Clinton was first exposed

The former White House intern, in an article in June 2015, had first written that 'the shame, the scorn, and the fear' put her in a dark place.
UPDATED NOV 15, 2018

Monica Lewinsky has made multiple new revelations in her sensational docuseries 'The Clinton Affairs', which also throws light on her first public disclosure of how she had considered suicide after her affair with former President Bill Clinton. The former White House intern, in an article in June 2015, had first written that "the shame, the scorn, and the fear" put her in a dark place where she was considering taking her own life.

The A&E docuseries 'The Clinton Affair' premieres on November 18 at 9 pm and MEAWW was given early access to the rivetting show.

"I have never actually attempted suicide, but I had strong suicidal temptations several times during the investigations and during one or two periods after," she had written in the article years ago. Although Lewinsky said that her relationship with Clinton was consensual, she also said that she was beginning to reconsider that notion based on power imbalances and "the ability to abuse them."

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