Payton Gendron: Buffalo gunman detailed beheading feral cat in SICK journal entry
'I then spent the next hour and a half chasing the cat around the garage and stabbing it with my knife,' wrote Payton Gendron
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Buffalo gunman Payton Gendron once stabbed and beheaded a feral cat, a shocking online journal entry has revealed. The 18-year-old stated in a March 25 entry that he killed the stray feline because it had been attacking his family cat, Paige.
Gendron detailed his sick act, justifying how he repeatedly stabbed the grey cat, bashed its head and then grabbed a hatchet and hacked the animal's head off. “When I came home at ~10:30 I was eating pizza bites when I hard (sic) my cat Paige scream from the garage,” Gendron wrote. “I quickly enter and the gray cat was attacking her. I then spent the next hour and a half chasing the cat around the garage and stabbing it with my knife (the camo one).”
The teen wrote about his evil act, describing how many times he cut the cat's throat until its head was detached. He also posted extremely disturbing photos of the cat's decapitated body. His own face is also visible, sprayed with splatters of blood.
“It bled from the mouth at about 11:00 and at about 11:45 I was able to grab the cats tail and wind up and smack the cats head on the concrete ground,” he wrote. “I did that a few times and when it went limp I grabber [sic] a hatchet and swung at its neck ~20 times until it came off.”
Gendron explained that he felt no emotions or empathy after killing the cat. “Honestly right now I don’t feel anything about killing that cat,” he said. “I thought I would be in pain but I literally just feel blank.” He said his mother gave him a box to bury the cat after he told her of the killing. “Just took a shower and now I’m here I barely even dug the grave it is so shallow,” Gendron wrote. “Well my cat Paige is safe now from that evil feral cat, may you find bliss from consciousness less [sic].”
About a month before he killed the cat, he wrote in a separate journal entry that his cat Paige had spent more time with him than any other human being. “My cat Paige has hung out with me more than anyone else in the last few years, I hope when I’m gone my family can take care of her properly,” he wrote in a February 27 entry.
The diary was given to New York Post by the International Centre for the Study of Radicalization. It contains thousands of entries offering a peek into the gunman's beliefs and thoughts. Gendron first became radicalized during the early days of the Covid-19 pandemic. The white supremacist's shocking online diary has revealed that he had been scouring extremist internet messaging boards.
Gendron spent months planning his attack in his digital diary, claiming that his exposure to 4Chan kept him motivated to stick to his plans. "My current beliefs started when I first started to use 4chan a few months after covid started,” Gendron wrote in the diary. The diary was initially posted on the Discord app but taken down after the Buffalo supermarket shooting.
In many of the entries, Gendron expressed his fear over the attack. He weighed in on his options, which he believed were either to go through with it, or die by suicide. “I’m not proud to kill these lads, in fact I’m desperately looking for a sign or evidence proving that I shouldn’t,” he wrote. One entry from March reads, "I can’t tell you how much I don’t want to do this attack My only other choice is suicide I can’t go back." Another from February says, "I have wondered if I’m mentally ill, and that’s why I’m planning the attack like I am now." "The past 7 years have hurt so much, I think I’m ready to abandon it all," he stated.
For the uninitiated, 'racially motivated' teen Gendron gunned down 10 people and injured three others at a Buffalo supermarket. Payton Gendron drove from 'hours away' in Conklin, New York, to the Tops market on Jefferson Avenue. The shooting took place in a predominantly Black neighborhood. Eleven of the victims were Black and two of them were White. He was arraigned on a murder charge over the weekend, and federal prosecutors are contemplating hate-crime charges. Gendron has pleaded not guilty.