Mother shares heartbreaking pictures of her last moments with 8-month-old son's body after he died of SIDS
The 8-month-old boy, who died from Sudden Infant Death Syndrome (SIDS), brought the mother so much joy that she found it incredibly hard to say goodbye to him
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Krystyn Johnson knew it would be the last time that she would ever see her baby boy, Mayson Michael Johnson, when she handed back his lifeless body. The 21-year-old mother was captured in heartbreaking photographs cuddling her "little man", kissing him, and holding his body tight as she wept. The eight-month-old boy reportedly brought her so much joy that she had found it incredibly hard to say goodbye to him. Krystyn says she has now become a part of the "bereaved parent club", a club that absolutely "no parent would ever want to be a part of".
Only hours prior to when the photos were taken, the young mother got a call that completely tore apart her world. The doctors in the hospital said they had tried to save him but he ultimately died from Sudden Infant Death Syndrom (SIDS).
In the images that were captured, Mayson looked like any other baby in a deep sleep but his complexion was ashen. One of the pictures shows the heartbroken mother with the body of her son wrapped in blankets. She told Mirror Online: "My mother says she will never forget the sounds and pain that left my body when they took him. I will never forget that feeling." The child had never had any illnesses when he had been alive.
Mayson's birth took 15-and-a-half hours on August 22, 2017, but it was a breeze compared to the birth of his older twin sisters. The girls were born two years earlier and had weighed only four pounds at birth. The twins also ended up spending several weeks in a neonatal intensive care unit. Mayson has been described as being an active infant who used to love following his older sisters, Violet Ann and Lilah Nicole, around the house.
Krystyn said: "From the moment he came into this world, Mayson was a bright light with the biggest smile on his face all the time. He loved life and learning how to do new things. He always wanted to be a part of what was going on in the world around him because he loved it so much. I saw a bright future for him. I saw it all; tee-ball practice, birthday parties, learning how to ride a bike, going to prom, falling in love. I saw it all in this bright, amazing, happy, and healthy little boy."
The young mother had never imagined that she would be a mother by the time she was 21. She always thought that she would e traveling to different countries and explore the world. She has confirmed, however, that she had been totally blissful about the path that she has taken to be a mother. That is, until Aril 16, when a phone call "broke her in a way she never thought was possible".
The infant had been at home with his 23-year-old father Trevian Johnson when Krystyn got a call from her mother. She said: "My mom goes, ‘Kyrstyn, you need to get home. It’s Mayson, there’s an emergency with Mayson'. My first reaction is that it must have been some accident. I didn’t assume it was this big medical emergency. She goes, 'Trevian went to wake Mayson up and he was unresponsive, he was not breathing. This is very serious, he has not taken a single breath or heartbeat since the paramedics arrived'."
The horrified mother immediately rushed home from the DMV where she had gone with a friend and found that the police and the paramedics were there at the home taking her infant away in an ambulance. She recalled: "My son wasn’t breathing. I remember running into the ER, asking about my son in between sobs, and being sent into a room where the doctor came in, looked me in the eyes and said, 'I’m sorry'."
"Just like that, every part of my soul and the person I was completely shattered; and I felt every part break piece by piece. I begged God to take me instead, to wake me up from this nightmare, for it to all be in my head, but my little man was gone. How did my happy, healthy perfect boy fall asleep for a nap and not wake up? Just like that, he was gone and we never had a chance at bringing him back."
After a few tests were conducted, the coroner determined that the infant had died of sudden infant death syndrome (SIDS). This shocked the mother because cases of SIDS occurring in babies above the age of 6-months-old is quite rare. The exact cause of the sudden deaths in the infants is still not known but it is believed to come down to a variety of factors.
Krystyn said: "I became an individual that I never thought I’d be, a bereaved parent. That day I became a part of a club that no one would ever want to be a part of. As parents, we think of our children as almost immortal because they are supposed to outlive us. As parents we cannot possibly fathom how to live without our beautiful creations, but unfortunately that’s not the reality of parents like me."
The young mother has said that she wants to show other bereaved parents that they are not alone in their suffering. She said: "Everyone says they are sorry and they are there for you, but time moves so quickly and those people move on. Yet you feel stuck and alone, so very alone. I started to gain control again with a situation I had no control over. We will always celebrate his birthday and his life. His name and smile will never be forgotten, and that’s in MY control."
"Everyone knows someone it’s happened to and they actually need you to be there instead of a message on Facebook. Come to the celebrations of life, call and check on them, show them they are loved and have reason to live, and be happy again. You may see us as strong doing what you ‘could never do,’ but we didn’t have a choice. Remind us we are strong, but remember we are also fragile and need a shoulder, an ear, or some words of encouragement. We will never forget our pain and all we ask is that you don’t forget us."
Krystyn first shared her heartbreaking story with Love What Matters. She added: "Maybe one day we can find an answer to why we lost our brightest sunflower that could ever exist in our lives, but we can’t do that unless we talk about it and raise awareness. Hug your children tighter and teach them to be kind as well. In the end, we are all fighting our own battles, but we should never suffer alone."