Maisie Williams' traumatic relationship with her father left her with 'feeling of impending doom’
LONDON, UK: Maisie Williams has recently spoken up about her childhood, which was apparently quite different from a normal one. The 25-year-old claimed on ‘The Diary Of A CEO’ podcast that she “had a traumatic relationship with” her father, whom her mother left when Williams was just four months old.
Speaking with host Stephen Bartlett, the actress, who lived in Somerset with her mother Hilary Pitt Frances and her three siblings, said, “Well, I, as a young child before the age of, like, eight, had a traumatic relationship with my dad. And I don't want to go into it too much because it affects my siblings and my whole family. But, like, that really consumed a lot of my childhood. Ever since I can remember, I've really struggled sleeping.”
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William went on to continue as reported by The Daily Mail, “I think a lot of the traumatic things that were happening, I didn't realise they were wrong. But I knew – I would look around at other kids and be like, 'Why don't they seem to understand this pain, or dread, or fear? Where does the joy – when does that come for me?” before mentioning, “I had that feeling of impending doom and I didn't know how to make that go away. There is a period of your childhood when things can stunt or alter forever who you are going to become.”
However, Williams’ life changed after she confided in a teacher when she was eight. She explained, “When I was about eight, there was quite a complex string of events that happened, but basically it had met its peak and I was at school and I was really struggling. I was taken by a teacher to the staff room. She asked me what had happened, she said 'are you hungry?' and I said 'yeah'. She asked me if I ate breakfast, I said no, she said 'why not?' and I said 'we just didn't have any breakfast', and then she asked if I normally had breakfast.
“They were asking the right questions. My mum came to school and picked me up. It was the first time that all of the doors were open and all of these things that we were experiencing were out on the table.”
Williams also mentioned her lack of understanding why she was separated from her father at that age as she stated, “I still wanted to fight and say these things aren't wrong, you're just trying to take me away from my dad and that's wrong. I was indoctrinated in a way. I think that's why I'm obsessed with cults. Because I'm, like, I get it, I get it. I was in a child cult. I was really fighting it at the beginning, my whole world flipped on its head.”
Elsewhere during the podcast, the star — more popular as Arya Stark from ‘Game of Thrones’ — asserted, “I was so glad I didn't have to see my dad anymore, but it was against everything I'd ever known. You can feel so liberated and free and at the same time, just like that impending doom is kind of still there. All your problems don't just go away, you still care a lot about that person, or the pain that led to those very, very poor decisions.”
Besides, Williams’ expressed her happiness to know that she’s not responsible for anything bad that happened to her. She added, “To be honest, I have been thinking about this a lot. It's not because of me that these bad things happened when I was a child. I thought it was. I through there was something inherently wrong with me, that it could be anyone experiencing the pain. It made me more interested in the guy. What could make you mistreat your own children? What happened to you as a kid? Did you pull the legs off bugs? Did you learn all this? That's how I feel about him now. He would make a fascinating documentary.”