Johnny Depp wanted 'fresh start' with Amber Heard even after she filed restraining order, text messages reveal

'I miss her. I love her. I always will. As will she. There were some difficult things to swallow...but, one either swallows or chokes'
UPDATED MAR 19, 2020
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In the months following the restraining order filed by Amber Heard against Johnny Depp, the estranged pair reportedly confided about their relationship in their mutual friend — Lady Gaga's ex-fiance and talent agent, Christian Carino — who also later set up a meeting between the two in San Francisco to sit face-to-face and resolve their differences. 

On May 27, 2016, the 'Aquaman' actress filed a temporary restraining order against Depp. According to The Blast, the alleged meeting between the two took place sometime in July of the same year. Although not much is known about what was said in the meeting, the publication has obtained texts reportedly sent by Depp and Heard to Carino after the meeting. 

"It feels like a dream and a nightmare all in one, it was difficult to not die when our eyes met. I have no choice but to dive into those pools of green. they represent every millisecond of what we had. I miss her. I love her. I always will. as will she. there were some difficult things to swallow...but, one either swallows or chokes," one of the texts that Depp allegedly sent Carino read.

It was clear that the 'Pirates of the Caribbean' actor swung between a number of emotions in the time following the TRO filing. 

 “She's poking at me to try and make me miserable...Textbook Narcissistic patterns. Why did she come to San Francisco??? No more games!!! She just wants her name cleared...She ain't being understanding, she's being stubborn, or she don't wanna talk to me...F--- This!!!” he allegedly said in a second text message. 

Johnny Depp and Amber Heard attend the Broadway opening night of "Cabaret" at Studio 54 on April 24, 2014 in New York City. (Getty Images)

A third text message reportedly said: "I don't know what to say... Apparently, she wants to go ahead with the divorce and then attempt a reconciliation...I need to think, man..."

He added, "What I wanted was a fresh start with my wife. which, I thought was what she wanted. she should do what she really feels...if her priorities are not us, then I will proceed and do what I have to do. I dangle no more."

Apparently, the messages turned aggressive when Heard's lawyers allegedly started blaming Depp of violating the TRO by showing up for the meeting. 

"Man... Her attorneys are telling mine, that I am calling and harassing her by phone!!! Is that them, or is that her???!" Depp messaged his agent. "First, I'm apparently stalling the divorce... And now harassing her??? She'd better put a couple of ball gags in her f---in' lawyers mouths and tighten them up... She doesn't want to work anything out... Her lawyers want to settle because they would die 1,000 deaths in court... So she wants me all softened up to settle up nice... That's what this looks like!!!” 

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