Courtney Stodden reveals attempted suicide years after horrific Chrissy Teigen bullying
In 2020, in an emotional YouTube video posted after their divorce from Doug Hutchison was finalized, Stodden revealed that they had attempted suicide by hanging in their bathroom in 2019
Courtney Stodden, who became the talk of the nation 10 years ago at age 16, after marrying 50-year-old actor Doug Hutchison, recently claimed that model and food blogger Chrissy Teigen has trolled them by telling them to kill themselves when they were still in a teen. Following this accusation and subsequent apology from Teigen, a report from last year surfaced where Stodden chillingly revealed in an interview how they tried to end their life in 2019.
During a recent interview with Daily Beast, Stodden, who came out as non-binary, cited 2011 tweets from the Lip Sync Battle host, where the latter had made several problematic remarks to Stodden like, "Go. to sleep. forever." The screenshots of the tweets were shared by Daily Mail, one of which says, "Saying Courtney Stodden's FB page got shut down for being too sexy is like saying the Nazi's were just meanies. As in, not quite." Another of Teigen's 2011 tweets to Stodden says, "My friday fantasy: you. dirt nap. mmmmmm baby."
According to Daily Mail, a 'dirt nap' hints at the burial of a dead person. On December 21, 2011, Teigen also retweeted one of Stodden's tweets with the caption "go. to sleep. forever." "She wouldn't just publicly tweet about wanting me to take 'a dirt nap' but would privately DM me and tell me to kill myself. Things like, 'I can't wait for you to die,'" Stodden said about Teigen during their elaborate interview with Daily Beast.
Did Teigen's bullying drive Stodden to take a drastic step?
'I still can’t believe that I did that'
Last year, in an emotional YouTube video posted after their divorce from Hutchison was finalized, Stodden revealed that they had attempted suicide by hanging themself in their bathroom in 2019.
“It’s no secret that I struggle with depression… I attempted to commit suicide about a year ago. It was just a point where I didn’t see a way out of all of the pain and grief and craziness and insanity of my life… Things happen behind closed doors. I just feel like it all got too much for me," they said. They went on to elaborate that they were quite drunk when they made the decision to end their life. "By the grace of God, it didn’t work. My attempt failed. All I remember during that time, during those few moments, I was thinking, God this is the best option. I don’t know what else to do. I was so convinced," they said.
Describing their suicide attempt, Stodden explained, "I took my pants off, I took my jeans off, and I wrapped it around the shower door and I just prayed. The next thing I knew was that my head hit the toilet or something, the shower door broke. I still can’t believe that I did that. I sit here right now in shock. Shock in how pathetic would that be doing that for some people that hurt me in the past. They don’t deserve that. They don’t deserve me taking my life."
Suicide attempt had nothing to do with Teigen
Contrary to the immense social media backlash that Teigen is currently facing for her old and deleted tweets, Stodden's suicide attempt in 2019 had nothing to do with her. Speaking to the Sun in January 2020, Stodden admitted feeling “strong” following the divorce and is “grateful to be alive today.”
They then slammed their ex-husband explaining how their “brain wasn’t developed” when they chose to marry Hutchison at only 16 years old. “His brain was fully developed and [he had] a relationship with a minor. From there on it was too much for anybody to handle behind closed doors," they said. "I believe Doug and I had so much love that was chaotic and toxic for the situation given. I was a child. I don’t believe Doug ever saw me as a child.” To their fans, they said, "You are important. Your feelings are important. I’m really truly grateful for being alive. You are not alone.”
Courtney filed for divorce from Hutchison in March 2018 after over six years together and several splits.
If you or someone you know is considering suicide, please contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or text Crisis Text Line at 741741.