Chris Watts still loves his mistress Nichol Kessinger and wonders where she is: 'He was mesmerized by her'
Chris Watts says he is still in love with his mistress and wanted to be with her so much that he resorted to murdering his entire family. However, he also says that he would not be in prison if it were not for her.
Watts spoke to author Cherlyn Cadle in letters and interviews for an upcoming book 'Letters from Christopher'. As reported by the DailyMail, Cadle said while referring to Watts's mistress Nichol Kessinger, "He was mesmerized by her. She showed him respect that he didn't feel like he'd ever been shown before."
Watts met Kessinger at his workplace and had been dating her for around two months when he decided to kill his pregnant wife Shanann and the couple's two daughters- Bella,4, and Celeste, 3. Watts, 34, was so taken with Kessinger that he attempted to give Shanann Oxycodone to miscarry their baby son Nico, given Kessinger's wish to 'give him his first son'.
Cadle revealed, "Christopher says he loved her like he has never loved anyone else before. At the same time, he loves Shanann although he knows that she was not his soulmate and not the person he was supposed to be with." Watts often wonders where Kessinger is right now and also told Cadle that he has received some letters and postcards signed with different names and wonders if they are from her.
After he committed the murders Watts recalled feeling light and free to be with his 'soulmate'. In the book Cadle also added, "After Christopher killed his family and drove away, Nikki texted him to look up the song by Metallica called 'Battery'. I challenge you to look up the full lyrics of this song. I find it interesting that we should believe it's only a coincidence."
While doing her research Cadle spent around 15 hours meeting Watts face to face in prison. She would also call him three times a week and had exchanged several letters with Watts.