Billie Lourd still suffers 'anger and depression' 5 years after mom Carrie Fisher's death
'My grief is a multi course meal with many complicated ingredients,' Billie write in an emotional post
In a post she recently shared on Instagram, Billie Lourd says her 'grief is a multi-course meal' with regards to her mom Carrie Fisher's death. Billie said despite so much time having passed since her mother's death, she still suffers 'anger and depression'.
Carrie Fisher, the legendary actress, passed away five years ago on December 17, 2016. At 60, she died of a cardiac arrest. Her daughter Billie shared a picture of herself with her mother and a koala on the occasion of the death anniversary.
In the emotional post, Billie wrote a moving caption for mom Carrie Fisher. She started by saying, "💞🐨💞 People always ask me what stage of grief I’m in. And my answer is never simple. I’m in a different stage of grief in each moment of every day. My grief is a multi course meal with many complicated ingredients. An amuse bouche of bargaining followed by an anger appetizer with a side of depression, acceptance for the entree and of course a little denial for dessert. And that’s how grief should be - all things all at once - actually there is no “should” in grief - grief just is whatever it is for you and that is how it “should be”."
She continued by saying, "Ps for anyone wondering why I’m posting this on the 26th it’s the 27th here down unda (aka Tomorrowland) so what better thing to post for my Momby’s Australian death anniversary (4 words I never thought I’d be putting next to each other?!?) than this picture of her and I with a koala!? ❤️sending my love to anyone out there who needs it 💕ℹ️ Ⓜ️ℹ️💲💲 🌱🅾️⛎ Ⓜ️🅾️Ⓜ️🅱️🌱💕"
This isn't the first time that Billie has shared an emotional post regarding her mother's death. On the fourth death anniversary last year, Billie also shared with fans and followers her deepest regrets. She shared a photo and captioned it, "Sending my love and strength to everyone out there that’s missing a loved one they’ve lost. Especially those of you who have lost someone during this crazy year. You’re not alone."
Just a day after Carrie died, Billie lost her grandma Debbie Reynolds too.
In 2019, Billie announced the birth of her son with fiance Austen Rydell. This was a secret pregnancy which shocked fans to the core. The couple was engaged in June 2019.