'He was low': Allison Holker Boss breaks her silence on husband tWitch's death

'He was low': Allison Holker Boss breaks her silence on husband tWitch's death
Allison Holker met Stephen Boss in 2010 during the 'So You Think You Can Dance' show (@allisonholker/Instagram)

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LOS ANGELES, CALIFORNIA: The entertainment world was in shock after the news of Stephen "tWitch" Boss's suicide came in December. After more than four months, his wife and dancing partner Allison Holker Boss has finally opened up about her loss and moving forward. The 35-year-old shared that she often misses him in the simplest of moments, "Stephen would hold my back every time I walked past him.”

The mother of three adds, "We'd have so many random conversations, and there was so much laughter," referring to the time the family used to have at the dining table. "Our love was so real and so loud. We always told people our house was like a choreographed dance." Grieving Allison further said, “No one had any inkling that he was low. He didn't want people to know. He just wanted to be everyone's Superman and protector."


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'It's been really hard'

Talking about the difficult time Stephen must have fought alone, "It's been really hard because I can't understand what was happening at that moment [he died]," said Allison. She also talked about his legacy, "Stephen brought so much joy to this world, and he deserves to be remembered as the beautiful man he was," reports People.

Finding purpose again, Allison recently launched the Move with Kindness Foundation to support mental health initiatives to honor her beloved husband. "We always hear, 'Reach out to the strongest people,' and I believe in that. But I also want the message to be that if you're feeling low or depressed, it's okay to lean on someone else. Trust that people are still going to see you as that light even in your darkest moments."


'Allison, it's still your purpose'

She further reflected on rediscovering her purpose, "If I'm honest, when this happened I was really confused with what my new purpose was going to be." Allison mentioned her conversation with close friend Andy Grammer, "Then I actually spoke to my friend, Andy Grammer, and I expressed to him, 'How am I going to still live out what I know is my purpose — love, and joy — and has always been my family's purpose?' He said, 'Allison, it's still your purpose. It just looks a bit different now — and it's a little more depth-filled.' I'll never forget that conversation because I feel like I knew it inside of me, but hearing it from a friend that I still have that purpose is helping me move forward as well."

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