"Everything is so horrible": Kendall Jenner gets candid about struggles with anxiety and panic attacks

Kendall Jenner recently opened up about her struggle with anxiety and even though the model finds it hard to deal with it, she does not give up on it

                            "Everything is so horrible": Kendall Jenner gets candid about struggles with anxiety and panic attacks

Kendall Jenner may be one of the highest paid models in the fashion industry, but as exciting as it sounds, good things always have a drawback. Kendall is no stranger to fame as the young star grew up in front of the camera, but knowing that she can be judged by millions of people out there, it scares her. 

Kendall Jenner attends the Official Viewing and After Party of The Golden Globe Awards  (Photo by Greg Doherty/Getty Images)

Kendall recently gave an interview to Harper's Bazaar where she candidly spoke about the downside of fame which she realized as she started growing in her career. The Keeping Up With The Kardashians (KUWTK) star confessed that she is aware that her life has no normal but that is not always a happy tale. Kendall believes that there is a lot of responsibility that is attached to being famous because people soon start looking up to you and notice every move.

"I feel like the life I live is extraordinary in a lot of ways but that it also comes with a lot of responsibilities," she said. Kendall confessed that she has not lived like other teenagers because she was constantly in front of the cameras and even in her 20s, she feels the same. "I've had to grow up pretty fast and deal with situations most 22-year-olds aren't really put into. There are days and weeks and months when you just don't stop," Kendall said. 

While some stars are able to manage fame perfectly, Kendall's OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) comes in its way. She is too particular about getting things right and making sure that they are done with a plan that sometimes, it makes it hard for her to go on with things. 

Model Kendall Jenner attends The 75th Annual Golden Globe Awards (Photo by Frazer Harrison/Getty Images)

"I can get OCD over the littlest things. If something isn't going the way I planned, I freak out. Some days I just want to go live on a farm and not talk to anyone and just exist in the middle of nowhere," Kendall revealed. During the interview, Kendall also opened up about how she has been suffering from "debilitating anxiety" for a while now. With the pressure of work and backlash for her recent Pepsi advert, Kendall confessed that she finds it hard to take it all in. 

"I literally wake up in the middle of the night with full-on panic attacks. Where do I even start? Everything is so horrible; it's hard to name one thing," the KUWTK star said. In the controversial Pepsi advert, Kendall was criticized for being insensitive with regard to the Black Lives Matter movement. During one of the episodes of KUWTK, Kendall was seen telling Kim about how she never intended to hurt or offend anyone through the ad but felt as it was a message of love and harmony. 

"I just think that the world needs so much love. I wish I had the power to send Cupid around the planet, as cheesy as that sounds," Kendall said in the interview. Kendall also agreed that the internet can be a very negative space. "You go online and you see everyone saying the worst things to each other, and it's hard to stay positive. It's hard not to get eaten alive by all the negativity."

Kendall Jenner attends the premiere of EuropaCorp (Photo by Neilson Barnard/Getty Images)

However, the Victoria's Secret model has found her own tactic for staying away from the stress that the internet brings. Lately, Kendall has been spending a lot of time away from social media and tends to not focus on the things that are being talked about in it. "I definitely don't look at comments. I think Instagram is still a fun place for the most part.I like going on and seeing what people are up to, but I mostly follow stupid accounts with pictures of puppies and little baby animals and people saving animals." 

Meanwhile, Kendall is staying away from Twitter as she believes it is "not fun these days. It just makes me sad."

In an interview with Self, Kendall said that another way of dealing with anxiety is trying to occupy the mind with something else. “I try to prevent anxiety attacks by bringing my mind somewhere else,” she says, adding that she regularly uses breathing exercises to calm down when she’s flying, a trigger of her anxiety. The reality star wants people to know that anxiety is normal and it is possible to fight it. 

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