Diddy talks about his depression and still being hung up on Biggie Smalls' death
Diddy aka Brother Love revealed that he still hasn't talked to a therapist about the horrors of his friend Biggie's murder, and admitted to having been depressed two and a half years ago.
Diddy, who now goes by Brother Love, opened up about how he had still not dealt with the pain of losing his close friend Biggie Smalls (the Notorious B.I.G.) and also talked about his struggles with depression that he went through over two and a half years ago, in an interview with GQ.
Love was asked to go back to when he was still known as Puff Daddy and imagine himself as the talent manager and founder of Bad Boy Entertainment that he was back then, and look out today at the music scene today and see if there was someone who made him feel the same excitement that Biggie did in 1993. Love pondered the request for a while before replying, "No."
But when pressed to give just a name he said, "Kendrick Lamar," referring to the 'Freedom' rapper who was named MTV's number one 'Hottest MC in the Game' in 2016, before adding. "But Kendrick's already made." Love affirmed that Lamar was someone whose talent was comparable to that of Biggie, saying, "He gives you that feeling." From a man who was Forbes' richest artist in Hip Hop last year, that is a big compliment.
Love then shared his list of his favorite artists still in the game, mentioning "Drake, SZA, Jay-Z, Nas, Migos, Lil Baby, Future..." before trailing off. Later on in the interview, the topic of Biggie was brought up again, particularly his murder. Despite having been murdered in the middle of the road while a big industry party was going on nearby, and despite multiple people having witnessed the shooting, the murder remained unsolved.
Love was asked about the murder and why he hadn't talked about the horror of losing someone so close to him, especially when he had been at the scene, sitting in the car ahead of Biggie's at the moment of the shooting. Love had earlier expressed guilt over Biggie's death, claiming that they should have been in London that night, but Biggie wanted to stay in Los Angeles, which he acquiesced to.
When asked if he opened up to a therapist about the shooting, Love replied, 'Nah, I haven't dealt with any of that yet. I try to get into it, but... that's something that just hurts so bad," he expressed, before revealing, "That's a time that's still suppressed."
Love talked about going through depression two and a half years ago, mentioning that he had become addicted to his phone and felt "far away from God," so he went to Sedona, Arizona, where he rediscovered his music. He said, "I'm not 100 percent knowing how to come up with the sounds yet," but expressed that he was close to wanting to put songs out on the radio once more.
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