Depressed mother records final message for her two children minutes before hanging herself: 'Mummy's head got too sad'
A depressed mother gave a heartbreaking final message to her kids before taking her own life, saying "mummy's head got too sad."
On July 16, Anthony Clay received an eight-minute video from his wife Amie Collier, 33, explaining how she felt like a "bad mum" due to her depression and did not want to fight it anymore, The Sun reports.
Amie, who was a PR executive, told her husband he would never be able to understand the full extent of her condition.
"Please forgive me for leaving my children. Tell them I love them so much but that mummy’s head got too sad," Amie's final text to Anthony said. "Please make sure they are well looked after and my mum is kept safe and well.”
At the time Anthony received the message, he was shopping with their daughter. He immediately rushed home, only to find his wife hanging in her bathroom.
Amie was rushed to the hospital, but died six days later. As the entire video message was read out by a coroner at an inquest in Bolton, Greater Manchester, Anthony couldn't stop crying.
Amie said in the message that she had "tried everything" to deal with her illness.
"You’re constantly reminded that you’re a bad mum because someone is better," the message continued. "I don’t know where the demon has come from, I don’t know where it started - I just know I’m a sorry case."
The court heard that Amie had been seeking counseling through the Marines while grieving over the death of her stepfather Graham. However, she was regularly drowning herself in alcohol.
"Everywhere she would go, she would be the heart and the soul of the party," Anthony told the inquest. "She was the star who walked in the room but I knew from living alongside her that smile wasn’t always the case."
According to him, Amie "wasn't 100 percent" after the birth of their son, and that she "had researched what to do and to go and speak to someone".
The day before she ended her life, Amie reportedly told Anthony to take their daughter out because "she just wanted a minute for herself."
"The next day we were in Superdry at the Trafford Centre when I got the text from Amie," he continued. "I bundled my daughter under my arm got in the car and went back. It is supposed to take 40 minutes I think I got back in about 25. The keys were in the door when we got back and my daughter was just following me as I went around into the back garden. I rang the police as my thoughts were she’s not in the house."
"My Marine training in terms of preservation of life kicked in and I did CPR on Amy," Anthony added.
Amie had seen an unnamed GP for anxiety and low mood. A statement from the said GP noted she was prescribed anti-depressants after having thoughts about self-harm during one visit.
“I’m satisfied that her video message indicated that events going back many years had led to her depression with which she felt she could no longer cope," Coroner Catherine Cundy said, recording a conclusion of suicide.