In the latest episode of 'Real Housewives of New York City', Bethenny Frankel became emotional as the court date for her custody battle with her ex-husband Jason Hoppy over 8-year-old daughter Bryn came near. Bethenny was on a two-day vacation with costars Luann de Lesseps, Ramona Singer, Carole Radziwill, Tinsley Mortimer, and Dorinda Medley when she found herself becoming overwhelmed with thoughts. 

“I’m so stressed out, it’s beyond belief,” she explained to Medley. Jason and Bethenny's divorce was finalized on July 2016. But it was just the beginning of their messy relationship as that was the start of the reality star's harassment and stalking charges against Jason. Following this, Bethenny was granted a restraining order last January which prevented Jason from contacting her or coming near her home and place of business.

“The restraining order’s up in a month,” she told Medley on the trip, as reported by People. “I just got the custody papers to do the custody battle. I’m panicked about the restraining order being up. I’m just panicked. I’m trying to raise my daughter. I’m dealing with a despicable custody situation. There’s so much going on, I can’t even explain,” she continued. “I’m going to explode. I don’t have time for any bulls—.”

Before the ladies decided to head out for a shopping trip, Bethenny could not stop herself from thinking about what would happen and she had a  meltdown. I don’t think I can go. I don’t think I can,” she said while crying uncontrollably. “I’m under so much stress. I’m having a panic attack.”

“I’m just scared,” she said. “I don’t want to go back to the life I had. I don’t want to be tortured.” Unfortunately for Bethenny, this wasn't the only drama she had to deal with while being on the trip. Just the night before she had a breakdown, Bethenny and Carole got into a heated argument. “It’s not easy to be on this trip with Carole. I’m having a rough one,” Bethenny continued. “I’m trying not to show it but inside I feel upset I don’t have the same friendship I did with Carole before. And this is Carole’s best friend’s trip. So it’s like their trip. I feel like a little bit of an outsider.”

Bethenny later told Tinsley that the thought about custody battle was on her mind. “I’ve got a lot of stuff going on with my custody case,” she said. “I’m here with someone who I used to be very close with who I’m not close with anymore so that’s more tension and makes me feel more awkward. I just feel trapped inside.”

This is not the first time that Bethenny has opened up about her relationship. The reality star opened up at length about her emotions while she was going through a bitter divorce. She had hinted that even after the split she had to deal with a lot of torture and would love to go into a "zero contact" contract with Jason.